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yep - am coming to realise that research is just the perfect vehicle for asking all the questions you ever wanted to ask. like how did it take me so long to discover how amazing researching is?!? it's all thinking, and creativity and asking questions. and all that ads up to awesome!

this is a beautiful story about love, and living and gambling on the risk of love.

cheers yo

shit. we are doing this again, and it's on tomorrow. yikes!

crossing fingers i get to see the end from the right side of the track this year.

don't decide what you will do based on what your family and friends think. i expected my mum would be really disappointed in me when i decided to leave, because she is an academic, but she was totally ok with it. and you never know, if you find something you are passionate about, your whole experience of uni might be completely different. here's me, back at uni for the third time, and now contemplating a phd - and yet when i dropped out of my first degree i thought i would never go back. why waste time and money doing something that you are not engaging with, and therefore, not benefiting from?

like i say, listen to your instinct. investigating options for transferring etc sound like good ideas, and so does talking to someone just to make sure you are thinking clearly. but don't imagine that just because it's not right for you right now doesn't mean that it won't someday be right for you.

uni is way better when you know why you are there, and what you want to get out of it.

goldbuttons, i dropped out of the final year of my first degree. i just left, because it wasn't right for me. a year later i did go back and finish it, but i was really happy with my decision to leave. if you aren't sure, then maybe go talk to a counsellor or someone, but i reckon listening to your instinct is a good thing on times like this.

absolutely agree hilly. i think failing at a couple of things at a really high key time in my life was probably one of the best things that has ever happened to me, because i now know that life doesn't end after failure. failing is a very freeing thing.

am pretty sure that's right hilly. now i just have to hope that i get a scholarship, because my school at the uni is not accepting any new research students without one. and i don't know whether i will get one. but we will see. and cross fingers very tightly.

i think my RA work will help deal with my research withdrawals too (i think i might pour myself into that a bit). but still... every waking moment has been spent thinking about this thing for the last couple of months. it is going to be a shock to the system when it's through, and i am allowed to switch off my brain every so often.

so beautiful! love it.

i just don't plan, and instead have faith in serendipity.